So,
I’m not dead yet.
80th birthday came and went
with me listening to a lot of people
telling me I don’t look my age
and certainly don’t act it.
Someone even got me a T-shirt that says
Shenanigator.  It’s an XL so I can keep
eating what’s wrong for me.
It’s a number I explained,
not an age.
Age is cheese and wine.
And as long as Clairol exists,
I will have purple hair.

I am impressed that I still have
a sense of humor available
without using anything illegal.
Again. Yet.
I have been trying to decide what is left
for me to do or be.
Since my age and number have no real connection
and never have,
the answer I arrived at is anything I want
that doesn’t involve
a lot of moving parts: my pieces and parts
have taken a beating and rust is everywhere.
After all the years of not liking modern technology,
I can now report that a keyboard and screen
make some of the best friends
a semi-aged, rusted introvert could ever have.
So much to learn. So many to bark at.
Or not respond to. Or simply delete.
(Ah, delete. Wizardry at its best.)
Or push the cursor around
and I get me to another planet.

I love this part of my life
more than some of the rest.
People expect less
and I like to keep upping the ante.
Why not?
Who really knows where the road goes?
My shelf life remains a mystery. 
 

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I have been a psychotherapist for over forty years. Carl Jung says that each of us carries the collective, something I believe to be true, so I consider my writing an acapella chorus.  My practice areas, mental health & addiction, provide me with more opportunities to see how much of a kaleidoscope life is.

I started as a prose writer at age five when I first wrote to Santa Claus explaining how thrilling it was for a little Orthodox Jewish girl to secretly be writing to him.  Over the years, I got braver and sent stories to magazines. Rejections-with-gratitude became a mainstay.

Poetry showed up after a 12-year writing silence due to life demanding more than full attention, and poetry became my shelter-in-place and means of recognition, teeny but real and highly satisfactory for this core introvert until a recent doctor’s note referring to my age so rattled me I decided to tell my stories by any means, which is what I ask of my clients. The teacher keeps learning.

I write to remember my origins and dreams. I write because other people’s risks have helped me find my way, so telling my story may light the way for another spirit on the loose.  The teacher keeps learning.

I am a transplanted New Englander living in southeast Georgia, a place not terribly much touched by modern times.  One of the good things about this buckle-of-the-bible -belt is that it does love its crazy people