hold my breath as
he checks my phone
i’ve nothing to hide—
still it’s a habit
that familiar fear of
getting caught being myself

later i’m scolded for staying up too late
asked if i am being difficult on purpose
or maybe asked if i’m being annoying
or irritating
on purpose
it’s all the same
these words

he scolds
now we don’t have time
to wash your hair

but i have to
i have work in the morning

then close the bathroom door behind me
—that is a normal thing
    i think?
maybe another mistake

i close the door because
i am scared

what I would say
if I let my own anger out